Author: Lọrẹmọla

How did we go from speaking everyday to complete silence

Sometimes I wish I’d never met you

I think it would be easier that way

Then I couldn’t miss what I’d never had

Sometimes loving and losing is worse than not loving at all

The streets are dark

A few stars in the sky

The water is calm

A lone okada man on the wrong side of traffic

Someone crosses the street without looking

Lagos

Seemingly peaceful

But never quite

Is there someone else? 

Because she says she knows you like I do

Is there someone else? 

Because she knows the places you’ve been to

Is there someone else? 

Because she knows your little secrets

Maybe she’s just a friend

But you make her laugh

Send her messages on the DL

Tell her things I thought you only told me

Is there someone else?

Or am I the someone else

You said something today

Don’t know if you meant it

“I love you”

My breath caught

I tried to act natural

But I’m really hoping that you meant it

I love you

I love everything about you

Your lips, your smile

The curve of your teeth when you grin

The raspy timbre of your voice

The way your voice pitches when you laugh

The melody of your words when you’re excited

I could listen to you talk all day

I love you

And deep down I’m hoping you love me too

I am woman

I am flawed, I am broken, I am damaged

I am woman

I am beaten, I am trampled, I am Ignored

I am woman

I am confident, I am sure, I am a fortress

I am woman

I bear fruit, I melt hearts, I build dreams

I am woman

I am many things in one

I am undefinable, I am indescribable

I am woman

Alágbádá Iná

The one with the garment of fire

Àṣẹ̀dá Ọ̀rún

The one who created the heavens

Ẹ̀rù jẹ̀jẹ̀ létí òkún

The mighty one at the edge of the sea

Ọba àwọn ọba

King of kings

Mo tẹríba fún ọ

I bow to you

Títí ayé ni mo ma sìn ọ́

I will worship you for eternity

You invade my thoughts

The sweet timbre of your voice plays in my mind every night before I go to sleep

I find myself sitting, wishing, waiting for that good morning text

That “did you sleep well” voice note

That quick check-in before you start your day

I’m left immobile until you hit play

Waiting for a sign

Anything that could point me to where your thoughts lie

Do you care?

Do I hold a corner of your heart hostage?

Am I all you hoped for and more?

Or am I simply an object of fascination

A puzzle which once solved will soon be discarded

I’m waiting for something

Anything that could point me to where your thoughts lie

Do you care?

Do I hold a corner of your heart hostage? Like you do mine?

Am I all you hoped for and more?

Or am I simply your current object of fascination

A puzzle which once solved is soon discarded